It's the answer..

Finally..
the day tat i waited since long long time ago..
It's 30th of July..
I invited her for a dinner.. juz decided wan to celebrate her birthday..
I planned everything..
juz wan to gv a surprise.. and show wat is my feeling to her..
dinner.. roses.. present.. cake..
it's such a perfect plan..
yet... i still nt manage to get her in the end..
I failed it.. my mood totally gone down 100%.. really down to the end..
juz imagined, wat's ur feeling when u'r rejected
actually.. i already expected this may happen on me..
bt i juz try to boost my own confident..
i juz wan to speak out wat i wan to say to her...
mayb i'm trying to cheat myself.. juz wan to gv myself a single tiny chance..
bt.. mayb i'm nt gud enough.. nt perfect..
btw.. i'm still statisfied..
i didn't fed up wat i did..
she's nice, perfect for me..
she showed me a sign..
she said tat she had a wonderful and meaningful birthday this year..
she blessed me..
I dunno whether she's giving me a clue or wat..
I really cant catch it..
She's nt simple. tats y i like her..
I still nid to put more effort on everything tat i nid to do..
Mayb it's juz a beginning..
I wont gv up easily..
bt nt nw..
I juz decided.. It's the time for me to concentrate my study..
mayb I will tried it again after finished F6..
I hoped tat.. luck and destiny will b on my side..
Time will show me tat..
It will...